If you had told me that I would be doing this job 20 years ago I would have looked at you, laughed hysterically and called you a nutter! You see I was trained to be a Scientist and I was very sceptical about anything to do with this field of work. I thought it was for hippys and people who didn’t really live in the real world. How wrong I was.
When I got my degree in Biochemistry, I was convinced that every answer was in the laboratory, that you had to prove it once then back it up 3 times with experiments, results and data. Then it had to be verified by numerous other experts before other people could accept and believe it. I lived my life strictly by these guidelines and employed them when I went to work in the Bank. It was a pensionable, secure job with a guaranteed income and a clear path up the corporate ladder should I wish to take it. My parents were thrilled, “a job for life they called it.”
The people I worked with were lovely and I had a great time there for 5 years until I realised I was actually pretty miserable! I did enjoy the environment and the salary was great but there was no purpose and no meaning in the job for me. So I left. There was absolutely nothing wrong with the job but for me, there was nothing right in it either. I knew I wanted to do something different but I didn’t have a clue what that was, so I took a blind leap of faith (or as my father told me at the time, I lost my marbles).
Thankfully I didn’t think too much about it otherwise I’d still be there.
I went ahead and took redundancy and over the next couple of years I embarked on a series of training courses, dealing with things I’d buried my whole life, learning about acceptance, emotions, freedom, the true meaning of love, happiness and the deep realisation that happiness starts with me and starts within. (Up until that point I thought it was tied up with fancy clothes and cars!) So you can imagine how much I had to learn.
And now, after 13 years in this amazing field, I realised that this work, this journey, well it saved me. I shudder to think where I would be and the level of pain I’d be in if I hadn’t discovered it. Who’d have thought that the one area I judged so harshly in my 20’s was the actual area that lead me to discover how to live with myself. How to be deeply and truly happy……..most of the time :-)